If you’re looking for a kumbaya story or “8 Savvy Tips to Get Over Income Jealousy!” I’m sorry to disappoint, but this ain’t it. You see, a friend of mine – a friend that I value and respect – just posted his new salary on Facebook and instead of being a good friend with a simple, “Congratulations!” I yelled, “F*CKER!” and shoved my laptop away in disgust.
I mean, I should be happy for him, right? Six figures at 27 years old is pretty darn impressive. And, deep down inside I’m sure I am happy for this kid, but it’s hard to feel it when I’m overwhelmed with feelings of mediocrity and failure.
I just hate that this guy earns more than 2.5 times my salary! I hate it. And, not because I feel my own salary is lacking – I’m actually pretty content with my circumstances – but every time I see my college friends’ lives in comparison to my own, it’s a friendly reminder of what could have been. With each new achievement, it’s like I hear my mother’s voice crying, “Why, oh why, couldn’t you have just stayed in engineering?”
And, yes – that could have been me. Believe it or not, I’m actually pretty damn smart. I’ve got skills, I’ve got talent, and – by the grace of God – some people even call me charming. But in addition to smarts, skills, talents, and charm, I lack two things: focus and discipline. And, let’s be honest here, folks – in this world, these are the only skills that matter.
So, what will I do? The only thing I can do, really. I’ll keep writing, keep learning, and – most importantly – I’ll keep dreaming. And, maybe someday – just maybe – I’ll finally become that six-figure girl.